Wednesday, May 19, 2010

I am tired of being harassed. You are insignificant to me. Troll if you must. I don't care anymore.

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Tuesday, May 18, 2010

Leave me alone.

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Monday, May 17, 2010

Where is the cable guy????

Day 27 of no cable.....

Sunday, May 9, 2010

Suds in a bucket...

 I have about three pounds of Goat's Milk soap.  I have had it about two years now and back then decided that I wanted to make soap.  I was terrified to work with Lye so this venture did not last long.

Today I pulled out the soap.  Huge hideous mass of soap.  The perk is that when I cut a tiny piece off, it was so silky and felt awesome on my hands.  Cool!

So I am on a hunt to find a recipe (EASY) that I can convert these big ole chunky bars into liquid soap.

The easiest one by far that I have found is the one on

How to Make Liquid Soap: Recipe #2

Ingredients Required

•1 Soap bar

•5 tbsp of Olive oil



Here is a easy homemade soap recipe. Grate the soap bar. Now boil 1 cup of water in a cooking bowl or saucepan. Once it boils, add olive oil and grated soap to it. Mix the ingredients well, you can use a blender for this purpose. Heat the mixture again. Add about 3-4 cups of water, stir well and the let it cool down. Fill it up in the liquid soap bottles. You can increase the amount of olive oil if required. You can also add fragrance and colors if desired and mix well, before the mixture cools down
Tomorrow I have to be somewhere..busy busy LOL  So Tuesday I am going to see if I do not turn my soap into a gloppy gooey mess. 

Wednesday, May 5, 2010

Keep Walking..

I am on a new journey.  I'm entering a new territory. An unexplored place in my faith.

I have taken my walk with God and my faith for granted.  Knowing He is there waiting...but I give a little wave, a nod and say, "I'm going on this other path.  I will catch up with you later"...I walk away.

This new journey is about hurt and anger. About unanswered prayer. About reasons why we go through certain things and have to endure the hard things of life. It's about questions, doubts.  I am doubting what a I really know about this life and those who share the air.

Even as I desire to learn more about God and His place in our hurt and about Satan and his role in causing the hurt. Or, does he even have a role? Have we become so cold, so evil, even Satan looks on in awe? Where is God when it seems like Satan, or if you will, the evil of man, has the advantage? Even though I know full well God holds the ultimate victory?  Don't I?
....I am still so far away.

.....And as I walk down this other path, God is watching...waiting

Colten is talking about joining the Army...Please God, just let it be talk...I am so sad

Tuesday, May 4, 2010

I'm leaving on a Jett plane..

Actually my Jett landed here today...Jaxon Jett that is!  Chelsea and baby Jett came to stay a few days with us!  I am a happy Gammie!!!

Saturday, May 1, 2010

I'm staring at you through the glass....

Zach is asleep.  He went to bed unhappy.  I wish I knew what to say to make him feel better. 
Life is so complicated when you are 18...Damn, it's hard at any age.

I am 40 years old and I wonder where it all went.  I look back at my life, as if looking through someone elses eyes... "For now we see through a glass, darkly"
I can't go back....Even if I could, there would be no time to fix all my mistakes hehe.

I love my Douglas and boys, Chels, Sarah Belle and baby Jett.  But at this point I feel like it is all water rushing over an open palm.  How long before it all falls apart?  What will happen now? 
Then I shake myself out of my solitude, and forge ahead.

Merna completely threw me to the wolves. Wow.  But I knew deep down, she would.  I knew.  Even told Doug what would happen if I stood by her.  But I was loyal to her...until the end.
Maybe it was a positive.  Now that I have taken a step away, I can see more clearly.  I am making a new life here. 

Zach is doesn't make sense.  I won't tell him that though...When two or more come together in agreement and all that..

Sleep will be better tomorrow...or it won't..